Even now

After these 7 years, I haven't accepted that I will never have any more children. There is a part of me that will not accept this fate. My partner will not budge on the matter, despite the pain it causes me. I wish that things could be different. I have decided to get a dog, but even on this point he is unmoving, so I have decided that I will just go ahead with my plan to get a dog, despite what he wants. I am tired of being the one who always bends,giving up what I want so that someone else Can be happy instead of me.

Wicked Garden

Can you see like a child?
Can you see what I want?
I wanna run through your wicked garden
Heard that's the place to find you
'Cuz I'm alive, so alive now
I know that darkness blinds you

Can you see without eyes?
Can you speak without lies?
I wanna drink from your naked fountain
I could drown your sorrows
I'm gonna burn, burn you alive now
Out of the chains that bind you

Can you see just like a child?
Can you see just what I want?
Can I bring you back to life?
Are you still alive?

Burn, burn, burn
(Burn, burn, burn, burn)
Burn your wicked garden down
Burn, burn, burn
(Burn, burn, burn, burn)
Burn your wicked garden to the ground, yea

Can you feel the pain inside?
Can you love? Can you cry?
I wanna run through your wicked garden
Heard that's the place to find you
'Cuz I'm alive, so alive now
I know that darkness blinds you

Can you see just like a child?
Can you see just what I want?
Can I bring you back to life?
Are you still alive?

Burn, burn, burn
(Burn, burn, burn, burn)
Burn your wicked garden down
Burn, burn, burn
(Burn, burn, burn, burn)
Burn your wicked garden to the ground, yea

Oh please.

Wondering where people are getting this impression that i am some sort of slut from...-_- I am NOT. Simple. I don't put out. Its just that simple. So don't go getting narky at me because you got some kind of false impression and are all butt hurt about it when I don't jump on your cock. What made you think that I would ever be interested in someone like you anyway? I find all sorts of people interesting and I enjoy talking to them, but there are VERY few I would EVER sleep with. Sorry if that bruises your ego, but I have standards.

Tomorrows to do list..

thinking I will need one...


1. Clean kitchen
2. Breakfast
3. Colour in with the kids.
4. Washing in machine and Dryer.
5. Clean bedrooms
6. Vacuum the house
7. Mattock the garden bed for planting.
8. Lunch
9. Movie with kids (knitting?)
10. Clean bathrooms
11. Chachi and Amber are both coming over in the afternoon.
12. Dinner (Pumpkin curry)
13. work on report.
14. knit for one hour and watch atheist experience. :P
15. shower
16. Die

yay fun....

Blogging about Vegie Mince.

Sometimes, being with a meatatarian can be very difficult...especially for someone who would be vegetarian if she didn't have to cater to meatatarians.... I have however come up with a solution that helps to alleviate a bit of the meatage onslaught - I am by no means the first person to ever do this but I thought I'd share it anyway...Vegie mince. it is basically the best way I have found to make meals that appeal to the palettes of meatavores and still make my quota of 50% meat free. It goes a little something like this.

2 large carrots, finely grated
2 large zucchinis, finely grated
6 largeish mushrooms, diced
6-7 finely chopped sundried tomatoes
one bunch of radishes, diced or grated
400g red kidney beans, crushed

This quantity makes enough for a huge lasagne or nachos for like 8 adults...so you can adjust the quantities of ingredients accordingly...

other things you can add are things like cauliflower, pumpkins, sweet potatoes, parsnips - but it depends on what you are trying to make as to whether you would use these things or not. For example, Pumpkin is good for lasagne not so great for nachos or pasta.

You could even add lentils to this for a lot of extra bulk, but basically this is what I use as a substitute to meat in things like nachos, lasagne, pasta, pies and stews. I use it just like you would use regular mince... It requires more cooking because of the extra liquids, but it is so worth it.

So there you have it...

Fan Girl...

At the risk of looking and sounding like a disgusting little fan-girl, I am utterly, utterly in love with Cristian Machado. Yes indeed, Eryn has a crush on an unobtainable man of considerable public status...But my my, what a man he is. <3
Utterly gorgeous and his voice..it gives me shivers... :3 I'd like very much to get to know him personally...

Selling some shoes.

I've got this pair of shoes I bought about a year ago that I loved the guts out of in the shop. They only had a size 8 1/2, but I bought them anyway, even though I am 9 1/2, thinking that I'd stretch them. I never did get around to it though as the first time I wore them they were very tight and I am very pain averse. I only wore them the once other than trying them on in the store, so they are pretty much pristine. there is some very minor creases and some virtually non existant wear on the soles from walking on the concrete. They are Black leather, size 8 1/2 women's Australian, they cost me $120 retail. I am looking for around $80 for these, but I will consider any offer on them. Not much point in keeping shoes around if I don't wear them. :) Postage will also have to be arranged. I am happy to send these overseas, but postage might add up.