Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Taking fate as it comes at me.

For whatever reason, the universe has decided I should stay home today. I had every intention of going to school. My lift never showed up. I waited for nearly an hour, just in case the feeling i was having that he was taking a really long time was due to my having got Jordis off to preschool early. I get sometimes that feeling that i have been waiting for half an hour, when really it was only 5 minutes, so I wanted to be sure this was not one of those occasions. However, It turns out I was right, and He never showed up. As a result, I had to walk home, and have decided to stay, as i only have two classes today, one of which I missed while I was waiting, and the other which I would have been late for anyway, had I walked to school. So here I am, sunny day, clean kitchen, about to start dying.

I did some gardening too. I started to clear out the clover from the vegetable patch ready to plant the seedlings that we have been cultivating in pots for the last month. I love this time of year, when the air is crisp and life is springing back all around. The taste of the air is uplifting.

I bought a new MP3 player yesterday. They were on special at Dick Smiths for $30. I think I will fill it up and have some Stone Temple Pilots while I work.

Dying to dye.

Providing that today remains sunny-ish, today will be dye day. I have to go to school for 3 hours, but then the day is essentially mine, and I got some 17.5 micron merino yesterday, (some of which has been sold, undyed, already!) and I cannot wait to play.


HSC

The HSC looms in the future like a big, loomy thing.

In many ways I am glad that it is nearly over. This last two years will have finally yielded the fruits they have tried so desperately to produce and in a sense, I am not really worried about my mark. I will just be glad to have seen it through to the end.

In other ways, I am scared stiff. I have NOT studied anywhere near as much as I should have this year and I am very foggy on some of the more crucial information for some of my subjects. I am trying not to worry myself too much though. The main concern for me at the moment is that I have not worked on my Art Body of Work enough. In fact, unless I extract the proverbial finger soon, I am sure to fail.

My art journey has been fraught with negativity. I need to overcome it soon, or there will be serious issues.

A new and exciting expedition

So, Here I am, having just invested a HUGE amount of funds in my fibre.

I love spinning and dying, but I am far from a wealthy woman. I see this as my opportunity to sustain my hobby because without making the money back, I can't justify being able to spin any more. I really hope that this investment pays off. I love what I do, and I hope that that is reflected in the fibres that I dye and spin. I am still not great at dying, but I am getting better, and have recently learned a few secrets about dying which I am looking forward to putting into practice with this new fibre.

I spoke today with Laura, the owner of Bee Mice Elf- an amazing fibre store from the USA, and she shared with me some of her experiences and gave me some good advice and inspiration and it has uplifted me a lot. I have just taken a huge leap and have potentially put myself into a debt that could be difficult to recover from, but I am desperately hoping that my own love of fibre and colour will be reflected in a way that attracts others to me and my work.

I am embarking on a potentially hazardous journey, and I am both nervous and excited. And much like a drug addict who tries to sustain their habit by dealing, am going to have trouble staying out of the merchandise. :D

Well, very soon, I will be up and running, and with luck I wont lose any fingers to burly Italian debt collectors.


Wish me luck.

Friday, July 30, 2010

mEdiCATeD mERiNO of Ravelry.

So I am selling my hand dyed yarns and roving through my stash now. with any luck, a way to sustain my fibre addiction. we will see if people are interested. Checkit!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Broken...

So this is what it feels like......

...When you have spent oh so many years loving someone so much that no matter who you are with or where you go, there is always some part of you that remembers...and they don't even remember your birthday.

...When the age old saying "you never lose by loving, you only lose by holding back" that you have so pathetically stuck to your wall doesn't seem to apply to you....because although you offer yourself up, heart and soul, it seems that you just aren't good enough...

...When years off being 'just friends' counts for nothing, despite the heartache it has caused you just to be in the same room...because one fight makes you dispensable....

...to be broken....

Monday, March 15, 2010

Easter

Ok, so this time of year for me is both wonderful and it really gets on my grill. I love Easter. I think it is a wonderful celebration of birth and renewal and of all of the festivals, it is my favourite. As a woman, and one with a daughter at that, i feel that the idea of celebrating birth and renewal is important, and Easter offers me a good excuse and opportunity.

I am not a pagan. I am not a christian. I hold no real spiritual affiliation with anything. I choose to celebrate life according to what i feel is right and appropriate, and I think the fact that 'Easter' is so widely celebrated only goes to emphasize the importance of this celebration for humans in general.

What gets on my grill though, is the seemingly ongoing war between christians and pagans about who owns the festival of easter. It seems that this time of the year always starts a fresh wave of antagonism between pagans and christians and it shits me. Why does it matter? Both celebrate it now, regardless of who started it. Can't we all just get along?

No? well since you started this argument, let me point out, as someone who is neither pagan nor christian, that the historical evidence shows that easter is indeed a pagan festival, which as nothing at all to do with christ or christianity, but rather is a celebration of the life of the celtic goddess Easter, who originated from the Babylonian Goddess Ishtar.

Here is a few facts to back up my point. Maybe now the fighting can stop? yes? no?

Easter is not a Christian name. It is Chaldean (Babylonian) in origin - the name Astarte, one of the titles of Beltis, the queen of heaven. The name Astarte, as found on the Assyrian monuments by the noted archeologist Layard, was the name Ishtar. The worship of Bel and Astarte was introduced very early into Britain, along with the Druids, "the priests of the groves," the high places where the pagans worshipped the idols of Baal. In the Almanac of the 1800's, May 1st is called Beltane, from the pagan god, Bel. The titles Bel and Molech both belong to the same god.

Semiramis (also known as Ishtar) of Babylon, the wife of Nimrod and mother of Tammuz, was the same goddess worshiped throughout the world under various names, such as the Egyptian fertility god, Artemis, the Roman goddess of licentiousness, Venus, the Greek goddess of love, Aphrodite, and the Ephesian, many-breasted fertility god, Diana, as well as many others.

The bunny, the oldest pagan symbol of fertility - Semiramis - has absolutely nothing to do with the birth of Christ.

Nor does the Sunrise service. Jesus was resurrected while it was still dark.

"And early came Mary Magdalene, when it was yet dark, unto the sepulchre, and seeth the stone taken away from the sepulchre." John 20:1

Sunrise services are for the worship of the Pagan Sun god only. In addition, Jesus was notresurrected on Sunday, the first day of the week. Please see the study entitled "Was Jesus Really Resurrected on Sunday?" at www.goodnewsaboutgod.com

One mythological legend says that sometime after Semiramis died, a huge egg dropped from heaven. Out of the egg came a re-incarnated Semiramis, now a goddess. The Babylonian Talmud refers to her as Ishtar, or Easter.

The forty days of Lent symbolize one day for each year of Tammuz' life. This period of time is celebrated in the "Christian" church by giving up something to mourn the death - of Tammuz, the son of the pagan goddess Semiramis!

Ezekiel 8:13,14 tells us what God thinks about any festival that recognizes Tammuz:

"The Lord said also unto me, Turn thee yet again, and thou shalt see greater abominations that they (the Israelites) do.

Then He brought me to the door of the gate of the Lord's house which was toward the north; and, behold, there sat women weeping for Tammuz."

As late as the 19th century, in Great Britain, at Beltan (or the 1st of May) a number of men and women assembled at an ancient Druidical circle of stones near Crieff, to participate in an ancient worship feast to Baal.

The festival of Pasch was very early observed by many professing Christians, in commemoration of the death and resurrection of Christ, although it cannot be traced back as far as the Apostles. But Pasch was observed by Christians a full month before the festival of Ishtar was celebrated by the Pagans. In addition, the festival of Ishtar/Easter now observed in churches is far different from the original festival of Pasch.

The amalgamation of the Christian Pasch, as observed in Britain by the Christians, and the Pagan Easter enforced by Rome, occurred by violence and bloodshed. But at last, the Festival of the Anglo-Saxon or Chaldean goddess, Ishtar, came to supersede that which had been held in honor of Christ.

"The hot cross buns of Good Friday, and the dyed eggs of Easter Sunday figured in the Chaldean rites just as they do today. The Œbuns,' known by the identical name, were used in the worship of the queen of heaven, the goddess Ishtar, as early as the days of Cecrops, the founder of Athens, that is, 1500 years before the Christian era. One species of sacred bread which used to be offered to the gods was called ŒBoun.'" Hislop, Two Babylons, pg 107.

"The children gather wood, the fathers kindle the fire, and the women knead their dough, to make cakes to the queen of heaven. Jeremiah 7:18

The hot cross buns are not now offered, but eaten instead, on the festival of Easter (Astarte - Ishtar).

"The origin of the Pasch eggs is just as clear. The ancient Druids bore an egg as the sacred emblem of their order. In the mysteries of Bacchus, as celebrated in Athens, one part of the nocturnal ceremony consisted in the consecration of an egg. The hindu fables celebrate their mundane egg as of a golden color. In China, even as late as the 19th century, dyed or painted eggs were used during sacred festivals.

"In ancient times, eggs were used in the religious rites of the Egyptians and the Greeks, and were hung up for mystic purposes in their temples. . . The classic poets are full of the fable of the mystic egg of the Babylonians.

"The occult meaning of the mystic egg of Astarte had reference to the ark during the time of the flood, in which the whole human race was shut up, as the chick is enclosed in the egg before it is hatched. And of course, the egg also refers to birth, or creation.

"Though the deified queen, whom Astarte represented, had no actual existence till some centuries after the flood, yet through the doctrine of metampsychosis, which was firmly established in Babylon, it was easy for her worshippers to be made to believe that, in a previous incarnation, she had lived in the Antediluvian world and passed safely through the waters of the flood. The Roman Catholic Church then adopted this mystic egg of Astarte, and consecrated it as a symbol of Christ's resurrection." Ibid pg 109,110.

The Bible clearly tells us what God considers the memorial of Christ's death and resurrection. It is not the pagan celebration of Easter, in honor of the pagan god, Ishtar. It is Baptism:

"Know ye not, that so many of us as were baptized into Jesus Christ were baptized into His death?

Therefore we are buried with Him by baptism into death: that just as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.

"For if we have been united together in the likeness of His death, we shall be also in the likeness of His resurrection:

"Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with Him, that the body of sin might be destroyed (rendered inoperative), that henceforth we should not be slaves of sin." Romans 6:3-6

The memorial for Christ's death and resurrection is Baptism - not Easter.

There is no doubt that Easter is a totally Pagan holiday.


Well, Whatever way you choose to celebrate Easterm I hope you have a good one. Love thy neighbour as thy brother anbd all that jazz.